6/20/2016 0 Comments About BedroomsSleeping in a living room for the majority of the school year, I have forgotten how lovely bedrooms can be. In a bedroom, you can take a quiet and peaceful mid-day nap. You can seclude to shed a tear, despite the presumptive irrationality of your crying. You can lay on you back, stare at the ceiling and unknowingly meditate into the abyss. You can prop you your pillows into the corner of the bedroom, curl up into you sheets, and accidentally fall asleep to the words of your favorite author.
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6/19/2016 0 Comments There will always be a messA new thing to know about me.. I am unusually clean about my environment. Not always, when I am (east cost) home I usually relax a little. Sometimes I can be convinced not to worry about the dirty floors or mess of homework papers but it is not easy. This is because after the time that I was in a depression, I determined two things that I needed in my life to be happy - order and challenge.
I needed and still need lists of what I am going to do in a day. Likewise, I have to have difficult goals and plans to achieve them. This small idea manifested from my personality, yet I think it may be useful for most people. If we want clarity in our mind, ordering our environment and lives is likely to help. Anyways, I don't underestimate the importance of order and challenge, not at all. I don't want to feel the sadness that I did before to such an extent that I sense a need to eliminate disorder almost immediately after spotting it. I try hard to do this but what I have noticed is that the world is made of disorder and I can't get rid of it. If not in my home, then it is easily found on the streets... in the litter, in the fights of neighbors... I can't control those things. 6/16/2016 0 Comments Additions!!!!I've created a new tab called Academia. Essentially, this is my studies, documented. The subjects (currently) are metaphysics, philosophy, international studies, political science, sociology, psychology and art. These aren't just the subjects I'm taking classes on at school, but my longstanding curiosities. Right now, the arena is a little on the desolate side but, it will fill up! I will post some of my essay assignments (edited slightly for clarities sake), reading notes, and well.. I'm not exactly sure where this will go.. Exiting places I hope!
6/16/2016 0 Comments On Body ImageThere have been times in my life where the idea that I think about body image has been shameful.. "You shouldn't bother with thinking about that.. In order to get better, you need to remove yourself from the subject." Well.. maybe those thoughts doesn't work so easily. I mean, it is pretty clear to me that there is a huge problem in our society (which I do perceive to be getting better but maybe that is because I am not 13 anymore and very concerned with fitting in.. but just because I am not the target anymore doesn't mean that thousands of girls are being targeted).
Were kind of under attack. Not very physical (well, actually, yeah pretty physical when you consider abuse and rape) but for this, I'm talking about a mental siege. Messages are sent to us every day, every hour, every time you get out of your unobstructed mind and take at what is being sold to us. I don't really think I can stop that but maybe I can put out another message. In order to feel better about your body, you have to feel better about your body. Alright, I know I sound like a round-a-bout smart ass but I don't mean to be. So yeah, it's a simple thought. But particularly difficult. At some point, you have to stop thinking that I WILL feel better IF I do XXX. Because that statement doesn't do anything for you right now. It's sort of useless, at least in the present moment. It's a message used against us... one with a huge financial profit. So much has told you to not feel good about yourself but, there is no reason for that. Sure, you've been wrong before. You've done things you wish you didn't and maybe there have been times you could have a been a better person, or... more the person you want to be. But please, forgive yourself. Move on. You want to like yourself. That is at least what you are saying. So, if it is about self love, you can only be the person you wan to be with action. Act kindly, hold your self to a high standard and appreciate yourself for it. If this has been difficult for you for a while (like it was for me) it is likely that you aren't going to immediately leap into self love.. maybe self contentment. And that is okay. |
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