I'm one of them. I'm not taking any medication.. but I do think I am a depressed zombie.
I fight this. I don't talk about my current depression because I don't want to be "fixed" with drugs. There is a lot going on in a mind. I know this. I can be happy if the correct conditions are met. This is social, physically active, and academically and artistically productive. INSTANTLY I can become unhappy if I am not working at meeting these conditions. If I take a nap, a break, don't rock climb for a day, I'm sad again. Edit: It's more than just meeting or not meeting conditions. Its like when everything is normal and for an instant you notice how the sunlight reflects on particles of dust and suddenly everything is different. For a few minutes, your happier. So.. I get that feeling but sometimes it makes me sad. Like a melancholy feeling. And this is "not good" but, at the same time, its just a feeling. I'm safe; I'm okay. Its just a part of me as a human. I want to be able to think and write about emotions without stigma. Because, maybe if you see this part of you with objective eyes, you can feel a little better.
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