11/10/2015 0 Comments The Transition:I had depression my last year of high school. When I decided that I did not want to go to college immediately after graduating I was afraid that I would remain depressed. Now, I am in school. The choice to return reflects a confidence in myself, the confidence that I can be in an institution that judges your success.
How am I doing? I run, rock climb, meditate and eat well. I drink far too much coffee and probably don't get enough sleep. The fall through spring academic year is divided into three terms. I am taking four classes this term, Life Drawing, Intro to Cultural Anthropology, Intro to Psychology, and a Writing class, totaling fifteen credits. I received 92% and 110% on my first two tests. I address all of my professors by their first name and they address me by mine. I enjoy going to my classes and engage in the discussions. I am anxious and extremely concerned with succeeding in my classes. This anxiety isn't good for me and I am changing that. I am going to take less credits next term and dedicate time to spend on my interests outside of academia: rock climbing, writing, film making and naturopathy. I can't push aside these aspects of my life for the four (or more) years that I will be in school, that is not what I learned to do last year. I am working on re-assesing the importance of grades, questioning how they really reflect your self worth but this is not to say that I don't care about my grades. I always will. My parents are financially supporting me and my education right now. This means that I don't need a full time job. My primary focus is doing well in school. I am privileged to be in this situation and, for that, I don't want to throw my opportunities away. I do think that I am ready for this transition. However, I still find myself anxious and compromising time for my interests. That is ending. Now. With this post. And more. Take care, Marisa
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