11/14/2015 TransparencyDuring the spring of my freshman year I developed anorexia. I was 94 lbs and my heart rate was about 40 beats per minute. I spent two months in an outpatient program for eating disorders at a local hospital.
This is a part of my experience that I don't readily share with most people. I, also, don't need to write about it. I can discuss body image, self confidence, perfectionism and self improvement from an objective perspective. I wonder, though, what is the purpose to decidedly avoiding this discussion? For social reasons, I would not bring this experience up in an everyday conversation just as you would not mention your childhood cat when you are engaged in a conversation nowhere near the lines of animals, childhood or companionship. Imagine, though, if someone asked you to elaborate why you feel that childhood chores aid in development of responsibility? Here, it may be acceptable and even beneficial to the discussion if you mentioned your childhood cat and how you fed her everyday. Nobody is asking me to talk about my experience with an eating disorder. However, nobody knows. The subjects that I mentioned above relating to body image are the subjects that I care about and have perspective on. I don't want to sidestep the reasons why I have the perspective that I do. I know, it is unpleasant to reflect on the self destruction of teenage girls motivated by an "ideal" that the collective individuals of a society ("you") have established. It is awkward. It makes you sad and angry.. I get it. It makes me angry, too. If it elicits this response in you, though, this means that it must be discussed. Quickly, it won't be so upsetting. Instead of perpetuating the problem, we find solutions. This is why I am not hesitant to talk about my difficult experiences. When I talk about what is difficult, I grow. Furthermore, these subjects are multifaceted. You might, and probably do, have an insight that I don't see. So if you feel like it, make a comment. Thank you for reading, Marisa Comments are closed.
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